I'm having to remind myself that this is true today. As you all should know, I'm currently in limbo between my frosh year and second year of university - and between [I guess you'd call it] my "old" school, and my new school. Before I left my old school, I was so excited to start at my new one. I'm still excited - for the academics, new city, living close to my family, etc. etc. - but today I'm mostly nervous. I'm a fairly friendly person, some have said I'm very friendly, but I'm still terrified of the thought of having to make new friends - again! I guess in a way I feel like I don't need to make new friends, because I have enough right now. I have all my high school friends, and then all the glorious people I met during frosh, and now I have to add more people to that? That's a whole lot of people to stay in touch with, and keep track of! I suppose I'm worried that I might start unconsciously replacing people... as awful as that sounds. Although I know that no one can replace the friends I already have - they're all pretty much fabulous.
Currently, however, I'm looking at a lonely summer. What with half my friends in my hometown, and the other half scattered across the country - but mostly in the most very eastern part of it, and none here on this [quite possibly deserted] island, I'm feeling just a little sorry for my usually very social self. I might start quilting with cat hair. I'm not exactly sure how that would work, but I saw a book about felting with cat hair once, and have become quite intrigued by the concept.
Can I also just quickly mention how l-l-lame it is to miss people a stupid amount when you know they are 99.96 percent sure not even having a second thought about you. Feeling just a tad more sorry for myself? Maybe... but just a tad. I will finish feeling sorry for myself this evening, and be back with regularly scheduled programming a.s.a.p. - I'm feeling like a lonely summer is going to be a very positive thing for my bloggity blog. Back on the blogging train, as it were! I guess the only possibly helpful thing I have to say today is that if you feel like you need to feel sorry for yourself, you might as well do it in full force for a short period of time, rather than wallow in it, then head up, eyes forward, and future bound - I hear it's exciting there.
